I have held on with one foot in the world for far too long. While maintaining this slight grip, it has hindered my growth in the Lord. This is not to say that I have not been changed or that I have not progressed, because i certainly have and am thankful for it, but i cannot help but think where i would be had i released completely sooner. There are a few reasons i feel i maintained my grip.

First, a fear that i would become irrelevant in the sense of no longer getting it like an unhip parent of sorts. I held onto a false assumption that if I did not keep just a foot in, that I would all of a sudden lose my ability to understand those who remain. As long as i still had issues, i would be able to relate. As long as i could relate, it would prevent me from becoming judgmental which leads to my second reasoning.

Second, a fear that i would become judgmental. I feared that if i did not hold on to a least a few small things by keeping a foot in there that I would become a judging Christian who looked down on others, that i would lose my ability to love them and to care. Once i was out, wouldn't it be easier to condemn those who were still there or were struggling with something? I was afraid I would become unsympathetic. Many are hurt by the judgments of those who have no right to the gavel, and that is a problem the church has had historically. I want no such gavel.

I am anxious to move forward as i feel a burden has been lifted and I can move faster and wiser toward the man i will be.